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HE WHO LAUGHS LAST...

No trust can be given freely
its' a valuable commodity
but obviously this is something you've never learned
Faith is something that you put in friends
and had I excess morals to lend
I'd let you borrow them
but my trust you haven't earned
We've got a problem?
First of all there is no "we"
I'm detached from you completely
I've got a problem
You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me
No bond can ever seem to make a stable fit in our relationship
but one thing that never comes between us is honesty
When you have something to say
you always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead, avoid me
Straight up is how you'll see me stand
but it is never in your plans to be straight forward
so instead, you use deceit
Now I would like to take apart what you've been breaking from the start
I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat
No trust!

FILE 13

I sleep until there is no light
I'm wide awake all through the night
Diner may suck but I'll take a bite, I do whatever I can
My muscles stiffen through the day
Discomfort never goes away
I feel like a garbage can
Throw me away, I've got no use
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose
Throw me away, I feel like shit
I am useless
I know I know nothing at all
I'd take stand, but I know I'd fall
I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster
Girls laugh and pass me on the street
I spook out everyone I meet
I've got pink toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master
I never seem to feel well
I always seem to look like hell
It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb
My mom thinks I wear women's clothes
I get dogged on at all the shows
It seems that everybody know I look like a fucking bum

WAKE UP CALL

If I had my way I'd wish them all away
but I can't find the magic inside of me
I'll give my best, 'cause I can give no more
but your problems aren't solved so easily
I'm not someone that you should run to
I've been, often, as broken as you
more often than you'd like me to
If I could heal all the pain that you feel
I'd gladly cure all that ails you inside
Unfortunately, I have no degree and I can not anesthetize
I wish that I could help you
I can't even help myself
It seems you need a saving grace and a savior's something I'm not

CULT STATUS

I'll turn you on and switch you right off
I'll make sure you like what you see
Forget all that you once believed
Now you will believe in me
Do you believe you make the choice
decide what you hold most dear?
In all opinions that you voice
it's my voice that they all hear
I'll take you ideas and your values
I'll make you turn them all around
I'll break your individuality, I'll take you down
I'll seal shut your open eyes
I'll give you a taste on the bland
Intoxicate you, take me in
You'll never feel the touch of my hand
I'll turn you on and switch you right off
I'll soothe your troubled mind
You'll never have to think again
it's just a matter of lost time

PERFECT FIT

What was it I was thinking
or was I even thinking at all?
When I think of what I thought back then
then I'm ashamed;
and I'm appalled that I gave up all I was so easily
Living your life is not for me
I won't be sedated, I won't be sedated!
Give me a little taste and I know I won't want more
I won't be sedated, stability is overrated
Give me the disorder I adore
I can't be a part, be a part, I can't be a part
I can't be a part, be a part of your modern world
I've gotta be apart, be apart, I've gotta be apart
I've gotta be apart
I can't grasp the values that you hold
What was it you were thinking
or were you even thinking at all?
When I think of what you thought of me
I take offense;
and I'm appalled that you could discount all I love so easily
Living our life is not for me

ADVANCES IN MODERN TECHNOLOGY

Every night I walk the streets
awake while everyone else sleeps
I'm giving unease to anyone I meet
My generosity can never runout
because I give a gift from what's within myself
No hope at all
Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left
I can't recall
I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best
Everyone avoids my stare and no one cares to ever dare to look into my eyes of what they most fear
And they're taught to fear, to fear no evil
And they know no fear, they've learned to love themselves
Forever unlucky, 'cause I'll own tomorrow
Forever unwanted, outcast today
I'm not misled, I've got no one to follow
Everywhere to go, no place to stay

THEORY OF REVOLUTION

Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day
Corrupted innocence just doesn't seem to fade away
Spoiled so young, you know it's bound to last
but when you're living in the city, you've gotta grow up fast
And it makes me sick, God, it makes me sick
Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day
If you want to buy affluence, your soul you'll have to pay
Wasting away the prime of your life
but it's been done that way for years
so you know it must be all right
Don't wanna think about it, but I see it every day
With every sip and every shot, mind and bodies fade away
Friends are all gone, and memories don't last
but when you've fallen off the wagon, you seem to fall so damn fast

THIS SECRET NINJA

Just like cellophane, you try to cling so tight to me
but your attempt's in vain
You've less sincerity than the plastic
Paper in rain
The print appears so bright to me
The words remain
I hold it to the light, I see right through
So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me
You just know what you see
Pay the price to see the show but you don't own me
Before you knew would you have felt the same?
Just when I'm inspired, you drain the drive right outta me
and even when I'm tired you push me to perform for you amusement
Just like raging fire, you burn what's left inside of me and to fulfill your desire
I'd give you light till I burned out
Just when you start to smile
I look into your eyes and see your veiled denial to express any real emotion
Just wait around a while, you'll lose what you once had for me
I'll be out of style, I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned

SOAP BOX DERBY

I'm not angry
I'm just amused at your quest for attention through your self abuse
The only response that you get for your pleasis sorely less than sympathy
What reason is there to be alive?
When the word is against you how can you survive?
All your friends are apathetic at best
and your entire life is a total mess
Give it a fuckin' rest
You can't feel me, feel, I'm scarred so deep
No one needs me. Could you please leave me alone?
I'm sorry to hear that your world's sinking fast
and you've lost your stable ground
and I'm sorry to add to your disappointment
but I won't be brought down
I'm not angry, I'm just amused at all the dramatics you love to use
but one thing I have noticed that is strange to me is
that you're not content until you're brought down
and you're always so alone because you can't be found
You're soul is black and you're filled with hate
How much more can you possible take?
Give me a fuckin' break

ASPIRIN FREE

There's no hope of helping us, we've only just begun
We're youth eternal, nothing more to become
A thousand lights are burning from both ends
We're proud of reputations we all own
Together forever
Rejected but never alone
Together forever
I'd purify the world with one primal scream
but no one would listen
Keep dark secrets to myself
because no one else will talk to me
It's hard for me to comprehend
they couldn't understand all the thoughts going through our heads
With a smile they tore us up, now look what we've become
Finally we are numb
No need to. No need to feel
I've got a nothingness and that's all that's real
No need to cut the numbness inside
No need to. No need to hear
What you've got to say means nothing at all
I've got no distance left to fall

FISHBOWL

I'm here today, just like every yesterday
Heavy heat, and sheets stick to my skin
Can't get away from nothingness
I try to get up, but I have to give in to the force that is keeping me down
I overcome gravity, I look outside
A cat cries out, trapped upon a window sill
but is crying's drowned out by my screaming inside
What will it take?
I wonder what it's like exposed outside, would I be safe?
When will it break
Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break
Sirens moan
They're forever crying...someone's probably dying
The sound sticks inside my head
Talk to myself, I'm company, but who is to say if nothing if said?
Two windows stare back at me
Three stories high nothing is new
I may sit, but someday I'll stand
I'll muster up the will and fire myself through

CHARLES ATLAS

You've seen it all a thousand times, you've heard it all before
You've danced the steps, you wrote the rhymes
So passé, too many times, but you're hollow at the core
Two generations past you by
You think there's nothing left
But look around and you will see what our world has grown to be
We are the now, not the past
Can't you even try to see the strength with which we've built ourselves to be
I know that you will never be able to destroy what it's meant to me
You've never seen the likes of us
We are your novelty
A brand new trend with mass appeal
don't like the truth, don't like what's real
You're jumping into something you'll never understand
You think that it's a passing phase
It's our entire life
You revel in rebellious ways
rebellion that the media made
When you change your channel, we'll smash your T.V

CROP TUB

You say you want to be friends, start over, try again?
Well, things will never be the way they were back then
Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't think of you that way
Now, if you take one step closer I will take two steps away
Maybe you need affection
I'd like to help you but I can't stand when you're around: fuck you very much
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust
Friends was not good enough?
Fuck You Very Much
You can always claim you're straightedge
go ahead and dye your hair
You won't get more attention from me
'cause I will never fucking care
I try to remain secret, shooting away and hiding out
but you always track me down
Open your eyes and figure it out
I'm not trying again
I'm sick of seeing you
Don't wanna be your friend
I wish you'd go away

CONSULT MY LOVER

You've got something to say, or so you say to me, then you receive a blank stare
You've got something to say of importance and gosh, that's really good to hear
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you
You've got something S.P. - some to show to me
Well, I have seen it before. I can't compete, I can't impress you
I guess I'll show you the door

TAKE THE TEST

When it comes the time that you have recognized your line
and you realize the path that you will travel through your life
be sure that what you want is exactly what you're trying to get
or you'll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing that...
Before you know, the haze makes you slow ignore your future
forget your past - before you know, cars start to crash
There are so many choices, the opportunities abound
Just to be sure to keep things straight and be sure to stand your ground
Let nothing shade your vision, even fight to keep it clear
Let no one change what's right for you
for when you start to veer cars start to crash

TWO OF A KIND

Hanging out and lingering around
'cause you know where I'll be found and I don't know how you do it
This obsession I must admit has shaken me up a bit
My solidarity now only comes pairs
I'd like to see you before you see me
I'd like to see you. I'd like to see you leave
Showered be torrential praise, why it is I can't explain
Attempts to leave yield no avail
For me I don't know what's in store
All I want is nothing more
I don't deserve what I get, I've nothing to return

SHATTY FATMAS

Don't care to hear what you heard
I won't believe a single word
Don't care to hear what you say
I won't believe it anyway
You relay fiction, facts you avoid
You're just like a fucking tabloid
you can never seem to get your information straight
Tell me something I don't know
Your information's fucking faux
Don't you have somewhere to go?
Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow
Don't want to know what you know
I just want you to fucking go
Don't want to know what you believe
I just wish that you would leave
You try to cajz everyday
I wish that you would get away
You can never seem to get your information straight
When you try to hang around, I'd really like to push you down
When you try to understand, I don't really think that you can

YURF RENDENMEIN

You keep on sayin' that you want to know me
but you never show me your true self
How can you ever expect someone else to know you
when all you're going to do is just pretend that you're someone else?
You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're really different
but your just the same
If you're really mindless then there is no way that I can win
maybe you're just one of them, or maybe it's just a game
You lie to yourself and remain alone
I'm not exactly sure of your motivation
I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to do
All I'm really sure is that you're not too impressive
and you're wearin' a mask that I can't see through
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance
maybe you're striving for something more
If it's status that you lust then why try to be one of us?
You're someone we'll never trust 'cause we know the score

CRUISE CONTROL

I will never want to date you while I can learn to hate you
If you somehow learn to love me, well, that's just my luck
I would never care if you only wanted my friendship
but somehow you're disappointed that I'm not a slut
I don't want to fuck you, so fuck you
I my mind there is no doubt that you've been in and out of many different backseats
many times before
I can always see your defeat when I won't leave the front seat
And it seems your disappointed that I'm not a whore

MODERN EPIC

Yeah I can see it coming
I've seen it all before
I've seen it once or twice and now I hear it call to board
This train is moving fast but how long is it gonna last
I guess that we'll find out as well go in through the out door
Don't ever let go. Is this the start?
Is this the end?
New faces ask, "what's happening?"
I bite my tongue and hold my breath and tell them, "the same old thing."
I don't know what's going, on but I don't wanna do it wrong
Don't wanna contradict myself with all the words I sing.