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THIS PRESENT DARKNESS

In this present darkness I fall
Fall upon broken knees
Crawl through weight, depression
Haunted by an unborn ghost I'll never know your fears
Never see me in your eyes
Curse the one that stole your name from me
This is the monster that they created
Scratch to the underside
The underside of this darkness
From seconds of your conception
Minutes leading your death
Seconds will shackle me
And turn eyes red I will
Constantly endure the pain of it's creation
How can i lie awake
Grace How can i lie awake
My love will stay dead
In this present darkness I fall

PAINTING THE WHITE TO GREY

Face, I am nothing
Face complete by sarcastic tastes
What a waste I think I'd rather die
Wanting never gaining I find myself pondering life
Always situations I can never hide
Crying tears of anger hate depressed
I never know the me never know what to do
Slit poor out the life a bottle of the vive
A desperate cry for something else to justify

I am in a daze caused by pain a failing force
That wants to change painting the white to grey
x2

A numb body shivering blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to grey x2

Plastic, always drastic vision of a psychopathic
With a razor crawling through the attic
I know somewhere out there someone cares
Wanting me to get my head out of the clouds
As they think its time
Repair the scars will never clear
I'll never be the same little one with the hopes of one day
Maybe being sane I might have tried before
But I locked the door I just need a reason to unlock it

I am in a daze caused by pain a failing force
That wants to change painting the white to grey
x2

A numb body shivering blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to grey x2

Cutting, popping I know I'm not the definition of your model
I'm always dropping dying or crying
I rarely find the relevance in always competing or trying...
So I guess I take dying
I need to feel the shame of what it was that i did x2
Painting the white to grey x2
My life summed up in a brush cold
In the back of a puppeteer bathroom floor
That is where I tried to make it clear
That is where I tried x3
That is where I tried to die painting the white to grey x4

DIVINATION

I've always searched for an answer for my convinctions
a troubled mind at 15,demonic visions,
I saw you raped and beaten thrown down like a rag.
Who the hell is this monster that surrounds my brain?
I try to make some sense of this,try to break this mold.
Divination a power I wish I didnt have.
Now I wake with sweat and blood,scars of you dad.
I wake from this nightmare to find its the truth.
Tell me now father,what did we do?
I'll never understand your actions...never speak to you.
Don't try and correct your mistake.
Fake fucker,fake father die.

SPHERE

Crawling back up from the floor now
I look above me and there you are
I see your smiling face so pure, its gold
Reaching your hand out to touch mine
Perhaps all I needed was your smile
A nice compliment or two
Where were you a few weeks ago?
When I was wanting to, wanting to die
I felt so worthless but you saved me
Watching me almost fall under
You were with him I was with her
Wanting each other more then life
A kiss away from being perfect
Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you
All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two
I hate my thoughts now
I'll leave her alone to live in bliss
Your my savior my dream come true
Why
Trying to figure out a way
I'll lick your wounds I'll heal your sores
I can never face my past
Not together I felt so sick inside
Death will come very soon
I tear as we drift away
Picture me dead would you cry

LEND A HAND

You ArE god's most beautiful creation
From the moment i set my eyes upon you
I knew i wanted to be near
To feel your arms wrap around me
And to share myself with you
Would be nothing but ecstasy
Knowing you will make me whole again(-L)
Then she said No
I cried out to help you
My friend who does nothing
I watched you high i watched you low
Never falling to far
I am glad to have been here
To help you get through her I know i didn't fulfill, but i helped somehow
I'll take your pain
Create with me
Chim was a way for you to breathe
I hope it was enough
To help you through this war called love
Take our hand
Before you leave
One more time, reaching our dreams
We feel incomplete
I know one day
You'll solve that mystery
And make them feel
The way you did me
Lend a hand, AE
To you my friend

EMPTY

I thought I knew you
My dream had come true
Look back, Don't crack
Your stares are empty now
I am still here I won't crack
It's all coming back
My thoughts of the fading you
Reach through, make you
Mold myself for two I cry for the bleeding...whore
Loss of feeling now I take the pain
So it's all right now I'm still a justified hole in your eyes
A pupil never a master A crumble of dirt to the land
Take the blood right out of my hands as you
Realize it's your blood
Blood My eyes see noones empty face
I see a second coming of the land I was born with the fear of love
You made that fear a dream Goddless
I see me reaching for the sun
Try forever to Reach the sky I'm empty
Can't find you I am still here
Its' all coming back
My thoughts of the fading you
Reach through, make you
Mold myself for two I cry for the bleeding...whore
Failure

SILENCE

I am the one breaks all
This misery you call your life
I am the one who will carry you
To an altar of joy
Follow me
Flee from this
Except nothing but the best
I will hide all your pain
Resort to the unknown with
Silence
The way I will keep
Silence From letting you flee
You are the one who changed me
To a quivering mess
You are the one who stopped me
From doing all I can
Now's your time
Let me in Let me in your functioning mind
I will hide all your pain
Resort to the unknown with
Silence
The way I will keep
Silence From letting you flee
I feel your stench
So warm I'm home
Let me stay
And feel you more
I come
All over now
Where do I go from here
Leave me behind
Never again bitch don't even try
Silence your mouths you whore